well that was a quick 4 years

Listen to "be" by common and get inspired.

To tell you the truth, more than a feeling a depression and disapointment, i feel relieved. I feel worse for all the players whos CIS careers ended on sunday. Not just ours (leo nick brock tony sills chicken), but my man Dodds, Dove and Mitchell. Also my man Rob ellis down in cowtown; him and eric. big up to eric for being nominated for that award. And all my other buddys who don't have the chance anymore. And for everyone who beleived is us. our friends and fans. I wish i could appolgise to evey one of them. beleive me i'll try. Its so strange. a man can work 5 years so hard for one thing. and can let it all slip away in a few mins.

Quite honestly, i'm proud of my old friend seth. He was a vetrain player when I started, haha. we go way back. I'm so proud of what he did.

Sunday was an example for all the kiddies out there coming up in the game that it doesn't matter what you have physcially, the mental part of the game is MUCH more influential. Ron Pike was quoted a few times saying how our bears team had his spartains well over matched physically. There was no bullshitting there. very straight up. But they came with their game and said with complete comfidence: "this is us, stop us if you can". Its rare i'm on the reciving end of that.

How I would LOVE to point fingers. SO BAD. not just at others, but at myself. but thats not what its about. you win national championships with your team. and more importantly, you loose with your team. If you put it all on your shoulders, not only is it selfish, but its unbarible. I've played in something like 8 or 9 championships; lost just about as many as i've won. The strange thing is the one I took the hardest was the one I had the smallest influence on:
back in 2001 at the canada games. I got in the final for one point. I missed a block. but after our alberta team got smashed by BC, I was a mess. I was 17, the proper age was 19. I don't know what the relivance is, i'm just going with where my head goes. Hey no ones forcing you to read this! sheat.

Well in closing, i'm very dissapointed in myself. overwelmed.... and a million other emotions. As much fun as winning is, Loosing is just as much a part of being a great player. You must understand, at the end of the game, no ones dies. your parents still love you. your girlfriend still loves you (unless she a broke ass triflin gold digger), and if your strong enuf, you'll have another chance to play this game. I'm sure there's lots more to learn from this year, and i'll realize what these things are in the next few weeks, and i'll have more to say, but as it stands right now. today, at this very moment.... i'm ok. i'll be ok. and us here in edmonton are gonna be ok.

Thank you to everyone for the support for the last four years. yes even you who heckled me from the crowd, your just as important.

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